A few weeks ago, PeeWee and I were sitting at the dining room table practicing for his spelling test. As he's writing his word list, he pauses and asks, "Kerrie, how did you life change after we came here?"
A million and one answers went through my mind in that moment because about a million and one things have changed in my life since the boys came to live with us nine months ago.
More responsibility, more laundry, more homework.
More laughter, more prayer, more adventure.
Wade walked into the room and he posed the same question. Wade's answers were similar and we continued on with our spelling. A few moments later PeeWee stopped again. His eyes filled with tears as he said, "My life has changed so much since I came here."
He went one to tell me that before he came into our home, he didn't think about God really. He didn't know or understand how important God's love is. And now that he knows, he feels so much better (has more energy is how he puts it actually. I just love that!)
One of the things he has noticed the most, he said, is that when we eat in public, we aren't embarrassed to pray before our meal, even if people are watching us.
And I thought, goodness. They are really watching all of the time. He has since become our most committed meal time prayer. He never forgets. In fact, when we went to dinner with some of his family, he alone closed his eyes, clasped his hands, and thanked God privately for his food as his brother looked on, nudging his smiling wife.
Honestly, before the boys came I didn't often pray before my meals. Don't get me wrong, I think it's a wonderful thing to always thank God for the fact that you have food; but for most of my life it was just something done out of tradition. After bringing the boys here and hearing them genuinely ask God to make sure their families had enough food for the week, my meal time prayers and thanks-giving had a lot more weight to them. And knowing that praying in public without the concern of what others might think has shown the boys the realness of the gospel and our commitment to it makes me even more dedicated to meal time prayer. Because you know what? People ARE watching! THEY are watching - our boys. And I don't want them to ever be embarrassed to love Jesus in public.