A few Sundays ago, just a few days after returning from Mexico, I recieved an email from someone who loves and cares about me, concerned that I seemed restless.

It struck me.  This email caused me to get into conversation with God about my restlessness.  She's right, I am restless. And the more I spoke with God about it, the more I realized that being restless is a good thing.

So often in America, as I'm sure you notice this time of year, life becomes about us.  I want, I need, I. I. I.

As Christians, we are in constant battle with the American dream, which was pushed on us at a young age by the world we live in.  We want comfort. We want privacy.  We want easy.

The morning I received this email, I was wearing this shirt. It's a new shirt and I didn't think much of it until later when I realized what the picture really was:
A man with the World on his back.

This was me.  Restless. Carrying the world on my back.  The heaviness of it weighing me down.  All of these people: lost, following false gods, dying and going to Hell.

It's hard to come back from a mission trip, where 100% of every day is spent serving God, sharing His love, enriched in His presence without the distractions of "life" and just jump right back into the world you left behind.  As I've said before, when I get back, I am only half here - part of myself reflecting in God's glory that was shown the week prior.

My brain is wracked with the need to continue. The need to NOT go back to a comfortable life - a life where I so easily go days without being solely in God's presence.

I'm so thankful for this email because it really caused me to reflect on what that means - to be restless - and how I don't want to be anything but.

It "just so happened" that the message that day was about the urgency of the Gospel.  I truly believe God was teaching me a lesson through all of this - to not forget God's will in my life, which, btw isn't to live in a nice house, have a good job, and spend all my time with family, but is to respond to the urgent need of the Good News of Jesus Christ to be spread here in my country and around the world.

Please, play this hour long video as you do stuff around the house today.  I had the honor of helping lead worship and sharing at the end of the message (on the Urgency of the Gospel) about what I do at Lifepoint church as the missions coordinator and just WHO I think is called to missions and WHERE I think they should go.

I leave you with lyrics to a song by John Mayer
"Waiting on the World to Change"

Now we see everything that's going wrong 
With the world and those who lead it 
We just feel like we don't have the means 
To rise above and beat it 

So we keep waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 
We keep on waiting 
Waiting on the world to change

{I'm done waiting. Are you?} 

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