"Even before He made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in His eyes. God decided in advance to adopt us into His own family by bringing us to Himself through Jesus Christ. This is what He wanted to do, and it gave Him great pleasure."
Ephesians 1:4-5

"And because we are his children, God has sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, prompting us to call out, 'Abba Father.'"
Galatians 4:6
"Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father means caring for orphans and widows in their distress and refusing to let the world corrupt you."
James 1:27

As I mentioned, briefly, in a recent post about my desire to learn and do so many things, Wade and I have always had the desire to adopt on our hearts.  Even before I met Wade, I knew that was something I wanted to do.  We have done some research here and there, even getting to the point of making personal contact with an adoption agent.  At that time, I discovered I was pregnant.
It was just a few weeks later when we lost the pregnancy.

Since then, I have looked around here and there, peering down the many roads of adoption.  As I see so many barriers, I must realize that for it to be a God thing, it will be impossible for me to accomplish on my own.  

This past Sunday we were challenged to think on two things: 
1. What we are doing currently that we could not do without God.

That one was easy enough, because I am completely unequipped for my job in taking people on mission trips, evidenced by my immense anxiety as those times come around.

2. What is God telling us to do, that we would do if we knew we wouldn't fail?

As I thought about my answer to this, I wanted to write "move to Mexico" sooo badly.  I wanted. As I've shared before, as much as I want that, I feel confident that it is not God's next step for us.  
To my surprise, my hand wrote Adoption.

It's scary, reading through all of the requirements.  It feels too hard.  I feel too young and inexperienced for anyone to take me seriously. And to be honest, it is even hard writing this and even harder thinking about pushing the button that will post this for the world to see.  But all the same, I know without a doubt that it is a task God is calling us to.  And I feel that He is saying that the time is drawing nearer. 

Today I was reading one of my favorite blogs, where Kelly Moore Clark has shared her adoption story through an amazing video.  You will cry, laugh... you're heart will break and rejoice.  I really encourage everyone to go over to her blog and watch this amazing documentary.

And please pray that we, like Kelly, will strive to follow God's will in our lives, always being available and sensitive to any opportunities He may put in our paths.

::with love::