A lot of people have mentioned their surprise (for lack of a better word) at my reactions to the situations that have come up in my life lately.  (see here, HERE, and then here to see what I'm talking about)

Surprise is the wrong word. 
But either way, the subject has been brought up to me several times over the last week.  It has been really encouraging, but has also taken me by "surprise" -- there we go with that word again!

Maybe my reaction isn't normal.  To be honest, I feel like I should be sad.  I think some people approach me like I'm about to break, and I wonder why that's expected of me.


Sure, I'm a bit more emotional this week.
Maybe I've cried through a Grey's Anatomy marathon.. or even shed a tear over an episode of Keeping up with the Kardashians during a "sisterly" moment. (I love my sisters, and love to rejoice with them!)
But I think it is because my appreciation for the things God has given me has increased.

It's a decision to be made - to trust God no matter what. It's not always easy, and it's not that I never get sad. I do. I cried when I found out the results. 
But even in tears, there is joy. There is trust. 


Many years ago, before I was even in the picture, Wade's brother and his wife went through a really hard situation - one we later went through ourselves.  He was frustrated - it's frustrating. And he called his brother for advice.  Only brothers can be this honest.  Wade said something to this effect, "God gave his only son... to be beaten and killed like a criminal so that we could be saved. Why do you think you deserve more than that?"

It sounds harsh, but it was said in love, and it's true.

Jesus would rather DIE than live without us. 
He has already given us everything!

And I don't deserve anything. Nothing, except for what I have earned. And thanks to God, for his grace and mercy, I don't have to endure that.

Being sad doesn't mean you don't trust God.  Jesus shed tears when His good friend Lazarus died (see John 11:32-36).  But I don't lose hope. And I don't mean hope that one day I'll have a baby.  I mean the real hope. Hope in my savior.  Trust in Him.

And this is why. Please listen below.


O the blood
crimson love
price of life's demand
Shameful sin
placed on Him
The hope of every man

O the blood of Jesus washes me
O the blood of Jesus shed for me
What a sacrifice that saved my life
yes the blood it is my victory!

Savior son
Holy one
slain so I can live
See the lamb
the great I Am
who takes away my sin

O the blood of Jesus washes me
O the blood of Jesus shed for me
What a sacrifice that saved my life
yes the blood it is my victory!

O what  love
no greater love
grace how can it be?
That in my sin
yes even then
He shed His blood for me!

:O thank you Jesus:




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