I need to be honest.
I'm not lovely.

Last week, as I wrote a short post before starting the weekend, I initially ended it with the tagline:
"God loves you and so do I!"

Then I erased it.

I can't put that.  What if my family saw that?
Would they think me hypocritical?

You see, I hadn't been lovely to them every moment of that day.

Why is it that it's easiest to to show your ugly side to the ones you love most?

It's a sarcastic comment here.
An eye-roll there.

All ugly ugly things.

All things that don't glorify God >> not one little bit.

And I hate those parts of me. I want to be lovely. All the time lovely.

When I dig deep, I know it's because I'm a sinner. I have an ugly heart that only Jesus can make pretty. And if I'm not spending time in His Word, I'm not allowing Him the opportunity to do just that.

So I stopped what I was doing, grabbed my Bible (app) and the devotional book I'm working through (Multiply by Francis Chan) and started reading.

As it turns out, God had a few things to say to me that morning on just this subject.

The book is about following Jesus' commission to "make disciples of all nations..."
This is what God said to me that morning:

"Jesus' commands don't come with exception clauses... We just have to be obedient in making the effort to teach them, even though we still have plenty to learn."

Basically, I can't let the fact that I'm not perfect (far from it actually) and the fact that I mess up and look ugly so often keep me from sharing God's love.
If I didn't share Him or talk about Him every time I didn't feel like I measured up, well, let's just say you'd never hear His name come out of my mouth.

We're all messed up. We're all ugly.  But Jesus makes us lovely in spite of it all.  I won't let Satan use my sinful nature against me. Jesus has already taken away my sins and laid them on Himself. There is no condemnation. There is only grace and grace abundant.

Praise Him for that.
And praise Him that my family loves me anyways.
And I'm so thankful for the time I got with them this month.
God is so good!

God loves you, and so do I.